Welcome Back to Magical Reality TV for the Revolution! This is EPISODE SEVEN of our series: “the truth about what art can do, in times of genocide.”
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This episode is Hot Off the Altar and tonight it’s READ ONLY. (~15 minute read.) Eventually it’ll will be recorded.
Greetings Good Listeners,
Tonight I want to read a tarot card for you.
I read physical tarot cards, as well as clairvoyant tarot cards.
That means: I have two tarot decks I work with that exist solely in the etheric realm…
I WORK WITH A GENERAL “OTHERWORLDLY GIANTS” DECK & A DECK I CALL “THE CHOSEN MANY” (YES, IT’S A CLAIRVOYANT BUFFY DECK!)
How it works: I just open up my third eye, I call on the tarot deck, I pull a card, and it comes to me.
What makes clairvoyant tarot so cool is that sometimes the cards are living pictures.
Sometimes the images move.
Sometimes they come with sound or music.
Sometimes one card is an entire episode of Magical Reality TV for the Revolution, waiting to unfold.
Today, I pulled a card for my BUTTERFLY SANCTUARY – ie our 4-month Ancestral Think Tank and Artist Retreat: “When We Lived & Died in the Thriving Village.“
This journey starts oh-so-soon on February 8 2025, and doors close this Wednesday, February 5.
For those who are joining – this is our signature tarot card for the next 4-months.
The name of this card is
“The Radiant Sun/Son”
The first thing I saw when I tapped into my otherworldly giants clairvoyant tarot deck is a card with a radiant sun taking up most of the frame, glowing at high noon.
The land/scape feels very familiar, although the bright glow of the Sun/Son fills the card such that I can’t – and don’t need – to see much else.
At the bottom of the card, a human stands in the foreground. The back/side of her head, down to her shoulders are in the frame. Her collarbone in the front, the top of her wings in the back. The card, as a moving picture, catches her long black hair waving in the wind.
She is me. But, she is also an archetype. A primordial archetype.
Estha pops up from the Spirit realm. He says:
“She’s an ancient one.”
Rahel appears, too.
“She’s an AMBASSADOR of the ancient ones.”
For those just joining, Estha and Rahel are my two twin black cats in the Spirit realm.
They are new Ancestors. They transitioned in 2023 and 2022 respectively.
Estha and Rahel are named after two characters from the book, “The God of Small Things.”
Let’s pause here for a moment of
Open Heart Surgery Storytelling.
That’s the technique of artistic energy healing I use to study stories and create storytelling tinctures.
It’s a type of “Divinatory Dramaturgy” if you will.
I don’t just write stories – I also open stories up to unlock their Ancestral Wisdom, Oracular Insight, Planetary Directives, and Relationship Lessons.
Let’s look at these two pieces of dialogue.
Estha says, “She’s an ancient one.”
Rahel says, “She’s an AMBASSADOR for the ancient ones.”
This dialogue tells us so much about who we are, and the medicine we carry, as Revolutionary Hearts.
Estha re-minds me of who I am, to a beloved.
Rahel re-minds me of who I am, to the world.
Estha helps me heal my masculine lineage.
Rahel helps me heal my feminine lineage.
He helps me re-member who I am, in intimacy.
She helps me know who I am, in the world.
The Revolutionary Heart is a Technology that I practise, gifted to me by my Ancestors.
IT’S A COMBINATION OF ANIMAL (COMPANION) COMMUNICATION, LINEAGE HEALING & SOUL PURPOSE WORK.
The Revolutionary Heart Technology acknowledges that animal companions come to us with a divine purpose to help us with our lineage healing and fulfill our soul’s mission.
“Revolutionary Hearts” are not just any kind of Animal Companions. They are SPECIFICALLY PURPOSED to work with Revolutionary Humans who do not cut corners, and do not play favourites.
That means they are invested healing in EVERYTHING: within, without, above, below, to the right, to the left (ALL YR DANG SHIT TO THE LEFT), front, back, surround sound, flip it and reverse it, all-hands-on-deck-decolonization, freedom for the Earth and her WHOLE body, until it’s backwards, in our lifetime.
When people like us do our lineage healing & soul purpose work, it’s just different.
The animals get that, and that’s why they help us through our unique challenges, gateways, initiations & life experiences.
A “Revolutionary Heart” animal companion can be in body or in spirit.
They can be an animal who you have/had a relationship with in Body who has (or eventually will) transition into Spirit, or the relationship can exist solely in the Spirit realm.
When you have a “Revolutionary Heart” companion, whatever our animal goes through in life or the after-life, is an extension of your healing journey.
This includes health issues, behaviour patterns, matters of their physical and/or spiritual body, or landscapes they travel in the material or spirit realm.
You can bet what your animal is going through – in body or in spirit – is a reflection of what you are going through.
(There are techniques we can study here if we want to go deeper on how your journeys are connected – like mirroring, shadow work, shared energetic surgery, cleansing & protection, vows and promises, etc.)
They are, of course, sovereign.
Our Animals belong to themselves, first and foremost.
They are on their own lineage/soul purpose mission that they have chosen for themselves, of their own volition.
However, when you choose an animal companion, and they choose you…
The depth & connection of our interlocking, synchronous healing is unparalleled.
That is why our animals teach us so much about intimacy.
It’s why they teach us so much about the world.
Animals.
They come to us.
As Revolutionary Hearts, and as Small Things.
They come to help the Giants.
They know that we need them.
We, the Chosen Many.
Those of us with Giant personal, planetary & soul missions.
Those with Giant Medicine. Giant Hearts & Spirits.
We, with Such Dear Giant Hands.
We chose to be here, now.
We did. We chose, and we were chosen.
We came, wholeheartedly, to this heartbreaking and miraculous stretch of time, and we swore we would learn how to live here without regret, we did…
For no good reason
other than because she asked us to.
The Earth. Our Mama.
She asked for us, specifically.
She needed us, We With Such Dear Giant Hands…
She needed JUST a few
who would eventually turn into many
She needed Just Us, with the Strength to Hold
and to let go.
And…
So we did.
Our Animals see the enormity of tasks on our plate, and they come to help.
They help us,
For No Good Reason
other than they know
we couldn’t possibly do it alone.
Our Animals recognize who we are…FIRST.
Before anyone ever made you feel seen, heard, loved for who you are…
Our Animals did it FIRST.
They said:
“I want to Go First. I want to Lead.”
I want to be on this Human’s FRONT LINE.
What an honour.
I want to be their first responder, whenever they need anything.
I’ll throw myself against any infiltration, any psychic attack, anything unecessary.
I’ll put myself on the line.
Simply because, this is WHO I AM.
They devote themselves to our cause, our greatest pulse heard in the heart of our Ancestral Sincerity.
Why would they do that?
Because, they trust us.
They trust us with their life…and eventually…their death.
They put their small set of years in our Giant Hands.
Nothing makes them happier
than to say,
we lived…
we died…
and, we lived again,
next to you.
My 40th birthday special of Magical Reality TV for the Revolution is called: “The Wolf Who Stopped Time.”
It’s a multiverse history lesson on why the Earth’s core stopped spinning for the entirety of Pluto in Capricorn (ie the last 15 years.)
In this episode, Estha and Rahel said to me:
“We can never repay you
for what you did for us, Mom.
But we will spend the rest of our time
giving back to you,
just to try.
In episode six of this current series, I told you about the SPIDERWOMAN TECHNOLOGY and my vision for a Universal Badass Income.
This is a business model, method of financial exchange, and a commitment to return to a way of life that embodies Sacred Reciprocity.
It’s about Retrieving and Re-membering what we know of Sacred Reciprocity deep in our bones, stars and memory of when we lived and died in thriving villages.
We must return to this, in our lifetime.
But also – what exactly IS Sacred Reciprocity?
How does one truly embody the spirit of true love, generosity and mutuality coursing through the veins of the planet?
What does that really mean to us?
You can’t explain it in a sentence.
It’s not a linear How-To, “do’s and don’t in 5 steps or less.”
It’s a mystery. You could unfold it for years. (And we will).
But, in some ways – it IS as simple as this one piece of dialogue shared by Estha and Rahel in the Spirit Realm.
“We can never repay you for what you’ve done for us. But we will spend the rest of our time giving back, just to try.”
When I look at this tarot card – what I feel most, along with the “Radiant Son/Sun”, is the WIND.
The wind tumbling across the Human’s face and hair, with peaceful conviction & homecoming.
The Human breathes the Wind like she’s gulping much needed water after a long thirst.
The Human on this card has been searching and aching for her dearly beloved friend for so long, the Wind.
She has lived and died and lived and died for repeating lifetimes without ever making it here.
But she is here, now.
She is.
She wants to fall to her knees, weeping and praying in gratitude. But she can’t.
She can’t do anything with this moment other than stand tall, heart open wide toward the sun/son, and accept The Gift as it demands to be received in her authority, and sincerity.
The Son/Sun pours down its rays, warming all of her, every part of her, as if all of him, every part of him, was made just for her specifically.
The Son/Sun feels like a drum. A Heart-Beat that never runs out of breath as it sends its sound reverberating through Multiverse, and it doesn’t end anywhere.
There’s a quote in the book Estha and Rahel are named after, it goes something like this:
The Great Stories are the ones
you have heard & you want to hear again.
They don’t deceive you with thrills & trick endings.
They don’t surprise you with the unforeseen.
You know how they end, yet you listen
as though you don’t.
In the way that although you know
one day you will die,
you live as though you won’t.
That’s what this Son/Sun feels like on this tarot card.
He lives as though he is endless.
He IS endless.
The Sun/Son spills his honey over the Human, as if he will never die…
although he knows that even stars collapse, eventually.
Even Suns/Sons disappear, in divine due time.
That’s what this tarot card feels like, to me.
He knows that everything dies.
But he lives as though he won’t.
And the WIND.
No matter how much they insult her choreography, she dances like she has never been hurt before.
The Wind blows on the Human’s tears, traveling them backward toward her ears….
…her tears tumble toward the ears of a Good Listener
who never stopped listening
through eons and eras of witch hunting
specifically designed to break down the lines of communication
between the otherworldly and the every day
the extraordinary and the ordinary
between phenomenal and mundane magic
between the giants and the people.
So, that’s our signature tarot card for our Butterfly Sanctuary.
When the Wind & Sun/Son
spill over her, her tears travel
through the low cadence of her
vocal chords & the sound is like…
…if a root chakra could cry.
If you heard the Root Chakra cry, would you Recognize Her?
I know that sound to reach everything, everywhere, all at once.
But, this moment is not for anything but herself.
Even if she is sitting at the top of the birth chart, at high noon, where they can all see her, hear her, feel her.
This one is just for Her
and the Wind.
and the Son/Sun.
Not because that’s a rule.
It’s just where we are, who we are & when we are.
It’s what my first creative writing teacher (now an Ancestor) taught me about how to write a good ending.
“the best written endings
are unexpected
& inevitable.”
That’s our Butterfly Sanctuary.
That’s our next 4-months in the Thriving Village.
For those who wish to join – you want to know what you’ll get out of it, right?
That’s what I’m supposed to do as a Spiritual Biz Owner, right?
Tell you about the transformative outcome?
Tell you how you’re gonna change by the end of it?
So I will.
I’ll spoil the ending.
It’s okay.
We already know.
The ending will be Unexpected and Inevitable.
IT WILL BE THE BEST ENDING EVER WRITTEN
to the Greatest Love Story
That Ever Lived
And Died
(And Lived Again)
But…
This was never a story that wanted to keep its healing to itself.
It’s for you.
For You
For Your
Stories Will Heal the World,
Too.
Estha and Rahel help me accomplish my Soul’s Purpose as a Revolutionary Heart.
What is my purpose?
To give something massive to the world?
To accomplish phenomenal impossible tasks for my lineage & make it look easy?
To create cascading masterpieces of art?
To bring forth an enormous revolutionary vision for the human collective?
To be a Giant?
No.
None of that is what I came here to do.
It’s not my mission.
All of that big stuff…
It’s just who I am.
Just me, when I’m being myself.
It’s not my dedication.
It’s not what I came here for.
I came here,
for the small things.
Estha helps me heal the right side of my body, what my masculine lineage needs:
re-member who you are, in intimacy.
Rahel helps me heal the left side of my body, what the feminine lineage needs:
know who you are in the world.
But…
What about my Trancestors?
What about the Gender-Fabulous?
What about the Integration & the Expansion & the Great Homecoming?
The shattering of ceilings, doors, windows…
What about the Rainbow Frequency?
What about the Village?
What about the Colours that landed,
finally,
ever so sweetly,
at the very last minute of 2024
as I sat before my altar weeping,
and the year went away,
the year of strength
it took to hold
the rainbow,
that’s the one
that gave back to me,
an ancient definition of gratitude
as defined by my Inner Thriving Village…
A Gratitude I Have Not Yet Fully Grieved.
What about us?
THE PEACE BEARER?
THE ONE WHO DOES NOT CUT CORNERS
AND WHO DOES NOT PLAY FAVOURITES.
What are they helping me heal?
What do they need?
What are they in process of re-membering?
Just This.
A Clairvoyant Tarot Card.
In all its glory, paradox and simplicity.
Just a Giant,
and a small thing
in its hands.
DOORS CLOSE ON FEB 5
TO THE THRIVING VILLAGE
If you loved this episode, you will LOVE LOVE LOVE joining us for our 4-month Ancestral Think Tank and Artist Retreat.
I will bring stories like this to every session, and we will get to workshop my scripts, and pull out their Ancestral medicine together as a group.
I will guide the group through “Open Heart Surgery” of my stories, and we will uncover so much more medicine together, that I would never be able to discover on my own.
Plus, I will weave in other play-full practices from my Growing Community Garden – like clairvoyant tarot, and like the revolutionary heart technology.
I’ll even get to do impromptu readings for folks, so you can experience the technology for yourself!
Check out the video below for more about what the retreat will be like.
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